Hello everyone! Well, it seems that it's looking very likely that I will be going to Dragon*con this year! 2010! Only thing, is that I'm always tight for cash forever and ever. I'm going to try my very best with the small free time I have to book some nude shoots to get this ball rolling!
Can you help me out?

I've posted a Modelmayhem.com casting call: CLICK HERE
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Please forward, or hand out my website to help!
www.1womanshow.com

What I'm trying to pan out is if air fare is cheaper than driving. I drive a '04 Honda Element. 21 city, 27 highway mile to the gallon. Less than $40 to fill my tank. I'll have to raise this money by mid-May, so let's do this!

I'm very excited! I can't wait to meet a lot of you!

xoxo
Kearstin

REDNECK ZOMBIES - 1986


One of the movies we've played for Zombie Nights at the Nicholson Abode every Sunday, we gave this movie a chance.
It seemed like it would be absolutely ridiculous, when it fact, not only was it, but it was brilliantly hilarious at the same time!
It isn't quite as b-horror classic like anything with Bruce Campbell in it (cue fangirls' scream),
but it was definitely something I wouldn't mind owning.
Although, thank you to Netflix instant cue, I'm set.

The quickly paraphrased synopsis of this movie is a family of rednecks come across a hazardous container of radioactive chemicals.
Because they're... well, rednecks, they used this obnoxiously green mix to put in the homemade moonshine they sell to the town.
If you drink it, you become a zombie... even the babies!

There is a group of kids who come down south for camping and drugs.
You know, the cookie cutter one survivor left concept. Black guy in the group is the comic relief, and dies. Two broads who do nothing but scream and run.



I give this movie 3/5 stars. It's just too funny not to watch. Very 80's, very old MTV music video.
Give it a shot!

Sorry about the delay! Thanks to the generous gift from a friend of mine from CYPHAN, I now have my hands on Left 4 Dead 2! As I'm sure a lot of you will agree, this game is significantly harder and more challenging than the first game. I even had to play on Easy at first to get used to the maps before I started dealing with the amazing changes in A.I.

First let me say that the UK's version of the cover is hilarious. If you did not know, tossing up the peace sign as opposite is offensive. Pretty much the "fuck you" finger, so they swapped the cover so it's palm facing the reader. HA! HA! Sad!

Just some quick opinionated notices I've come across in L4D2:

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- The Tanks have became smarter. Although, easier to kill. They've now understood instead of trying to attack one of us until we die, it's more like let's just get them incapacitated all at once so nobody can save anybody. Brilliant!
- The zombies are harder to kill. Not that they're difficult? It just takes more to take them down. Using a Melee as well, you really need to aim that shit. You can't just swing and they die in one swoop like in L4D1.
- The platforms for the campaigns I think are more realistic, and more of an opportunity to play egg hunts. I almost never want to play thru the levels because I want to roam around and find things. It never ends!
- Weapons. I love them. The idea that you can not only have more than one, but, the options for them are pretty great. Even though my heart still belongs to the assault rifle.

VERSUS
I actually haven't much time to get my hands on this part of the game. I've made some quick games in and out (that's what she said) to scope it, but, so far just to me, it's well... versus. Infected team usually wins, how awesome can you be.

REALISM, etc.
To be continued...

LEFT 4 DEAD 2 DEMO TODAY!
And here you thought the apocalypse was over...
Left 4 Dead 2 comes out November 17th this year, and I'm fairly excited. I haven't pre-ordered it as I'm extremely broke, but there's no doubt I know enough of you that will own it soon enough. So expect me to pay a visit and join in until I get my own copy. Today was the L4D2 Demo, and I got a chance to get my filthy mitts on it! Even starting with the very main menu, the music is unbelievably sexy throughout the game. Definitely that Rockabilly feel, which as you know, has my heart. So, hollow body guitars aside, let's get down to business:




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The Weapons:
You now are capable of holding two weapons: a gun, and a melee. New weapons are a for sure, which is great.
My personal favorites? The AK47 and Machete :)
Unless I'm missing something, the demo only let's you partially go through the PARISH campaign. Which, I felt after a while to get any real hordes or decent mauling of zombies, you gotta play advanced or expert. Easy and Normal barely have any hordes, but out of all, they definitely toss in lots and lots and lots of special infected. Mm, my favorite.
Other Melees:
- Frying pan
- Guitar

The Special Infected:
The Spitter? You know that grandma you are pretty embarrassed to admit you're related to? Yeah. That's her.
The Charger? What a dick, but definitely easy to kill. He just comes out of nowhere. More potential for cosplayers I think than the Tank. I think it's the overalls. Hee-yuck.
The hunters? Look way more evil in this game, and I think I'd rather cosplay as these hunters than the others in the first! Didn't really have many generate though, which is disappointing.
The Witch? Music is not as scary, it's actually entertaining. Same format. Leave the bitch alone.
The Jokey? Also a dick. Equal to but not limiting to as the Charger. You just have to catch him the right way to kill it. He kind of reminds me of the disfigured Spartan in 300.
The zombies? Apparently their eyes glow a retarded white. Which makes for sweet trances. I lost myself a couple times just looking at these zombies.

Other Items:
There seems to be more temporary health chances such as an "adrenaline" shot, but it's totally an Epipen. Destruction or distraction items include a vile of boomer shit I think, which you toss onto a zombie, and the rest attack that said zombie, giving you a chance to shoot the shit! There's also a canister of hazardous something, which I believe is either the same shit the Spitter vomits out, or it's just toxic waste.

Way better graphics.
Speaking of graphics... that machete? Seriously. Pick one up, and have at it. The screen collects an amazing amount of blood. Probably the only drawback of using it, but shit, look out I'm all up ons the Machete usage.

The dialogue? Could do without. It's no Francis. It's ok Valve, I forgive you.

All in all I'm very excited about L4D2. I'll be prepared to yet again lose countless hours of sleep all because I can't seem to get off XBOX.
Don't forget to add me and play some time!

All moved in and into my new place! Things got really stressful and unrealistic for my brother and I, so come this past month, we've packed up, picked up and got a really nice apartment in Wheaton, IL. It's the same establishment when I used to live in Naperville, but bigger. 2 bed 2 bath real fireplace 1k sq ft walk in closets. I love it. I'm still unpacking and doing mega purging. Lots of my things have been packed away for a few years on account I've been moving so many times. Now I finally get a chance to go thru and toss what I don't need to keep and organize what I am. I came across my trunk of "old memories" and found a folder jam packed of middle school to high school hallway passing notes. It was amazing. Brought back lots. Some was a rush, others I tossed because I do NOT want to remember that anymore. Times are anew and I want to start getting my life back in shape.

I was starting to feel guilty for a while, but as of late, I feel things are starting to get a move on. Shaping for me to where I can actually sleep at night. It feels great. Even though I'm extremely impatient, I can only retort with glee! I'm letting things ride as they go and just enjoying myself for a while. It feels pretty good. Less stress, which was my main focus. I still feel a little empty on parts of me, but there's lots of baggage I need to take care of.

I have a second job, which is actually my old job that I got back haha. It's super parttime, but it's better than nothing. I need the money, I've been so financially shit on as of late, it's depressing. I just had an internal interview today in another department at my full time job, which is the NOC Outage (Network Operations Center Outage), which is considered a promotion. It went well IMO and I hope I get it. I could use the change and workload. I find out on Friday or Monday!

There's a convention in Tinley Park this month on Oct 24th. Free to get in if you cosplay! Which of course I will. I think I might bust out the X-Men: The Last Stand Phoenix for that. It's been a bit colder outside, so the more layers in this costume the warmer I'll be haha. Since I've moved I barely have a table to sew on now, so the upgrades and to-do list is on hold until I not only can sew on a table, but can purchase more material to complete stuff! I will try to see if I can crank out Bruce Timm's Poison Ivy this month. Solid colors, not much to it, I just need to learn/be taught how to create that one-piece strapless corset thing. I don't want to wear underwear/bottoms with a corset, I want it one piece!

I had a photoshoot with Ashley Sylvester as model and Robert Frank as photographer, and Reevived Style for warddrobe! It was a very awesome shoot, I think we're going to have some great shots. It was in a prairie field area, we were doing a "twins" aspect since Ashley and I have the same hair nowadays hhaha and the warddrobe was very vintage. Old everything. Loved it. I can't wait!

Speaking of Robert Frank, Mr. Gregory Titus has added me to his portfolio for a self-portrait he's been working on for August. Lots of things going on with him, and apparently I'm a part of it. I like it a lot. He took one of Robert's images of me and drew it to his piece. I think he's going to color it, but this is it:

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Anyway, that's all I've got for today. Been keeping busy, not really been online often. My phone is currently shut off until Friday when I can pay it... if I can pay it. So internet is really the only way to get a hold of me, even then I just leave my Messengers signed on!

I had a photoshoot on 9/5/09 with Robert Frank! It was my first actual hans solo photoshoot since I went red head, let alone first real one in a while. More pictures soon!

COSPLAY UPDATE:
Started putting more together relatively from X-Men The Last Stand Phoenix Jean Grey suit. Looking for a little bit more help on that before I try to complete it. Goal is to try and finish it by Windy City Comicon which is on Sept 19th. I think that would be awesome. I'll have my hair redone, nails redone, and hopefully lost some kind of lbs in 2 weeks. If not, it's not the end of the world. I'm still going regardless sans costume.

I had a dream the other day where I was Briar Rose (Aurora, Sleeping Beauty) and I was singing the songs. I had to teach others how to sing. I was showing them how to vibratto. Then I woke up really itching to make a Briar Rose cosplay. Of course, like the other 68 on my to-do list, it shall have to wait for the funds to create it.
Sigh.

I've been reading one too many D*Con tweets from all my favorite cosplayers and friends. It makes me jealous that they're there and I'm here. I hate how money is everything! Next year, I want to go to D*Con, as well as SDCC and Power Morphicon.

Speaking of Power Rangers, I got a buddy of mine, Aaron, who knows mask molding and fiber glass stuff. He'll be showing Jess and I how to create helmets! I'm very excited. I hope that turns out great because I really want to become a super awesome seamstress who can also make other shit like accessories and tools and weapons!

MODELING/PHOTOGRAPHY UPDATE:
I had a shoot on Saturday with Robert Frank. We shot outdoors around a farm area. I think I had a pseudo cute outfit on, and I know there's definitely some shots I'm going to use. Super cute! I had a good time. Quick set!

Sept 12th, I'll be shooting a paid nude shoot with Matt Gaynor.
Sept 20th, Gregory Titus and I will be shooting together with Billy Sheahan. I'm excited about those.
I have some other shoots lined up both me as a model and a photographer. I'm trying to get my head back in the game. It's something I do enjoy doing! I just hate sometimes how crazy modeling makes me. It's this double edged sword where modeling makes me intensely reconsider my weight, yet at the same time it's a good motive to actually get me to work out.

OTHER UPDATES:
I enjoy meeting new people. Been posting on the WUMB a lot. Made some friends there. Also made some haters, but hey it happens anywhere you go. Not everybody will like you. It's just unfortunate the reasons nowadays on why people dislike you.

Still living the single life. Nothing too exciting there. Some drama llama for a while, still kind of now, but I think I'm handling it pretty well. The attention from others, especially old male friends, have been "coming out of the closet" on their "confessions" about me. Which to say the least is interesting. Why is it I drop 50lb, lose the piercings, and look like a normal woman I all of a sudden am wanted? It's weird. I feel like everybody's lying to me.

Last night was Joefest. I went to see Brad first and we watched 300, but once I arrived at Joefest, I swear I wasn't there for 5minutes before a huge fight broke out. I'm surprised cops didn't come. I think heard some bottle breaking and everything. It was outdoors, so it was rambunctious. There are so many "new" people in that circle of friends I almost felt silly being there. "Who the f are you" kinda looks and stuff, when I was around before these crazy cats. Oh well, I don't miss the punk scene. It's too rowdy and noisey for me. I'd rather be at home lounging or watching movies or something less chaotic. Like a Richard Cheese concert! FTW!




Anyway, that's it for today.
Tune in next week when I work long hours at my day job, post on the WUMB, and try to lose some lbs before the next convention!

Finally summer has been acting more like summer. Been hotter than 75 degrees. In fact, it's been a whopping 90 practically this entire week. I really hate humidity. Although today it's super storming, so that makes up for it. I love rain. It's probably the most soothing thing I can be around. Naturewise, besides a beach of course.

Chicago Comicon was awesome. I got to meet so many new people. Lots are from the WUMB boards. Ariel even made me a WUMBette badge. I made some banners (on my site) to link to them, as well. It's a pretty addicting board. I love posting in it all the time. Makes time go by because people actually utilize it. Unlike the other boards that I'm on, barely anybody goes on it.
I barely spent any money at the con, which was great for my sake, since I'm trying to move into a new apartment come October 1st.
Gregory Titus stayed at my place for the entire week, which was very great. I had such a great time. I got to meet a lot of his buddies. I even hung out at the Hyatt bar... a bar! I know crazy! Pete took a picture of me at a bar because it was such a blasphemy. haha Since Khary Randolph's table was next to Greg's, we all hung out. They're so funny. They even enjoy my brother, which means a lot to me, since Lee is one of my best friends. Chicago Comicon this year was the first big con I actually cosplayed at. I've never gotten so much attention, or even pictures taken by so many people before in my life! I felt like a goddamn celebrity walking red carpet. I couldn't go 5 feet without a photo op or a video interview. It was awesome. I hope it helps me out in the networking aspect of things. Because ya know, I'd like to be famous some day. Somebody (Greg's friend Eric Jimenez) even though I was Ruby Rocket, which is probably a super great compliment for me.

Greg is going to stay with me again come the weekend of the Windy City Con, which is September 19th. We're also going to have a photoshoot together! Making it be his very first. I'm excited! I got a hold of BIlly Sheanan and Eugene Feygin to execute some shoots for us on 9/20. I hope they come through because I think a shoot with Greg would be fabulous. I can't wait!

There's also another Tinley Park Comicon on Oct 24th. You get in for free if you're in costume!
Holiday Inn in Tinley Park! I believe it starts at 10am.

I added a feed to my website for my blogging, so now it updates automatically there, too, which is nice.

OZtoberfest in Kanasa this year? Damnit!

My head has been pretty pressured and chaotic as of late. I think I'm handling it as well as I can, and I'm trying not to hurt anybody, but, I need to be doing things for myself still. I haven't completed much for my progress on my goals, and I think because I'm still in the same predicament with some stuff that I'm still distracted. Dad is still driving me crazy. I'm really glad I'm leaving home again. I miss being out on my own and responsible for only my own things and my own bills. I work for a cable company, and he's trying to get me to transfer the free services to his new place he's moving into with his girlfriend. I'm not sure I want to do that yet. It'd still be under my name, and I want absolutely no more ties with him anymore. I kept telling him "We'll see" and he keeps pushing for it.

I'm going to interview/apply for my old job again tomorrow after work. I'm excited to pick up some extra cash. I really want my credit cards paid off. I regret ever getting them.

Ever seen the Star Trek porn parody on Hustler? I think Gregory Titus and I want to recreate something like that, but with comic book characters. Would you join a site if we created such a thing? Even if it's not porn, just sexy photoshoots, selling prints, no affiliation with Marvel/DC/etc at all? I think it would be extremely hot. Hire some couples or something and make a huge thing out of it. Fuck you Suicide Girls, here I come! I get chills just thinking about it. There's a site called Cosplay Deviants, but it's got mostly ugly broads, and horrible photography. None of that shit, give me the good shit.

I can't wait to move. I will be on a consistent diet, work out routine finally. we even have two pools at my apartment, Jayson wants to take over the kitchen and cook for us, which I'm all about since I eat only fast food. And I'll be stress free! Who doesn't want that!

We're going to have a garagesale/yard sale I think in September. I'll keep everybody posted if you're interested in stopping by. Lee and I could use the cash. We DO have cool stuff, and Lee and I are always willing to downsize if that means upgrading the living arrangements.
Dad however, says he has shit to sell, but who knows what it is. He's a pack rat, so we'll find out. Hopefully his girlfriend will whip him into shape.

Cosplay Updates:
- I think I'm going to add the first appearance of Jean Grey to my list. It's pin-up, because of the 1950's, so I'm all about it. I won't even have to hide any tattoos because it's long sleeve, and she wears gloves. Ftw!

- Jess might be doing Youmacon as well, so hopefully I can get her help if I work at the same pace with somebody else making a sailor senshi suit.

- Rich is on a Deadpool kick, and he's going to get going on creating a Deadpool cosplay. Which I'm excited for him. I never really thought he was into cosplay as much as I wanted him to be, but he seems to even be interested even though we broke up. He might even do the Deadpool in the white suit on the cover of one of the Deadpool issues. I've never seen it done, so let's hope he pulls thru! I want to take photos!

- I can't wait until I have money and the time to up my skills to sew. I want to be able to start taking commissions.

Cosplay Updates:
Took apart X-Men The Last Stand Jean Grey costume to tailor and bring in since it's too large. I'm getting help from Justin since I'm still very very new at sewing. Hopefully I'll have it completed in time for Windy City Comicon to wear with other X-Men movie cosplayers. Jess? Nash? Chris?

I bought knee high yellow vinyl boots to start off the launch of Jim Lee's Jean Grey. I don't want to rush that because I want it to be perfect. It's for now off to the side since there really isn't any large conventions coming up now that Wizard is over. Since I bought a serger from Justin, now I know I can sew spandex way better than cross stitching.

Birdgirl still isn't finished. Justin's going to show me how to create a durable skirt with a hidden zipper. It's stretchy material so I hope it's nothing complicated. I have yet to take the red fabric and sectioned fabric for the anklets and belt. I still need to make a coat and the wings, as well as probably just go buy a white button up. Since shoehardware.com fucked me over with my yellow spray paint, I need to find a new product that can successfully stay on shoes. Perhaps just regular spray paint would work? I'd be painting the white Vans I have. Pete gave me a sheer fabric and this wiring mask to put in her "helmet" over the eyes. I still have to rewire inside to make it more sturdy, and less rubber mask-like.

I think I've worn out all three Phoenix costumes already, so it's almost time to revamp and upgrade all three suits. I'm really excited because I want to do things like hidden zippers on the feet so I can take off and on my shoes, hidden zippers in the hands so I can remove the gloves so I can eat. Better bird emblem, better sash, create a belt brooch for the sash, higher turtleneck. Oh man, so exciting.

I think come Spring semester after I've moved and been away from dad's burden for a while, I'm going to go back to COD. Take a sewing course. Maybe even a Photoshop course, too. Even though I have before? I'd like to upgrade on that class, too. My work offers grants I think, or loans, one of the two, so I think it'll be awesome to go thru them easy.

I'm a part of a Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon (senshi) group that is going to go to Youmacon this year. I hope I can get around to it, since it's in 2.5 months. Let alone that's a trip to Michigan. I posted in the community that I'll be doing my best, but moving right now is my top priority. I'll be creating Sailor Mercury. Even if I can't get to Youmacon this year, I still want to make it.

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Home and Personal Life Updates:
I need to come up with $1,144 by October 1st. Lee needs to get $794. Combined, is a downpayment/first month's at the Wheaton AMLI establishment right off of Danada Square on East Loop. They're so nice. They're the same apartments that I used to live in in Naperville. Lee and I are striving to go to this place. It's right inbetween both of our jobs, it's walking distance to SOOOO many things. As well as it's right off of Butterfield, so easy traveling if we have to go places towards the highway. My only thing is that it's hard for me money wise because of the financial situation I'm in now. Helping provide for my father, since he can't. I make more money than anybody in the house. My name is on everything. Late fees here, late fees there. I can't pay for everything in entireties, so that's why I got a couple of credit cards, which I regret getting. So it's almost like I'm paying for two places at once, if I try to save for a new place on my own. I can't see to fucking sell my TV for the life of me, which I understand considering it's a Tube tv instead of a flatscreen. I've had a couple people write me from Craigslist expressing interest, but no follow ups on either.
I'm also trying to sell my Playstation 2 wireless controller, no go.
I'm also trying to sell my iPod travel speaker for the headphone jack, no go.
I could probably sell a bunch of CD's, too, since I never buy them anymore (unless it's Elvis or Squirrel Nut Zippers), but they're packed away anyway.
Modeling has been dry.
Photography has been dry. Although I've got Chuck just texting me now asking for hire... sweet.
Retouching has been a little dry, as I only have one client I've been relatively frequent with.
This whole "economy sucks" thing well... really fucking sucks.
I got word that there's a good chance I can be rehired at my old job at Healtthrack parttime for chump change. I think that will help. Minimum wage in IL went up to 8/hr, so that's realistically more than enough. I guess it depends on how often I work. I guess it's that time in my life where as a 23 year old, I need to work two jobs and put my hobbies on hold. Which is depressing, but, money rules everything.

Being single for the first real time in 4 years is pretty weird. I almost don't know how to act sometimes.

Work is stressful, as always. It gets frustrating with some people and their lack of ambition to well... work or look it up themselves. Seek and ye shall find, as my mom always used to say. They preach accountability, and there's so many that never practice it. On a lighter note, we just got bombarded with new apparel, so I have new t-shirts, hoodies and a baseball cap.

I really want more tattoos. Finish my chest piece, get a Jean Grey half sleeve, get a Poseidon half sleeve. This is getting ridiculous. But it's also something I'm not in any hurry for considering I'm broke ass anyway.

I'm still 160 lbs with this squishy muffin top and pouch in front. I'm not trying very hard. I hope also the move will help. AMLI has a mini gym and huge swimming pool, so I will use the shit out of those.

If you have my Facebook, there's lots of photos from the Convention this weekend posted! I got to meet some cool people, hang with awesome people, and get my picture taken so many times! It was my first large con where I cosplayed. It was great!
So if you have any photos of me, or even video footage because I know I got interviewed a bunch of times, send it my way!

All in all, I'm still pretty busy, chaotic in the head, and striving for a new life right about now. I still think it would be great to up and move to another state, but I can't run away from things right now. I should move when things are calm, not tuck tail and hide.
I'm still unhappy with things.
I'm still tired from things.
I'm still frustrated at things.

Hopefully things will get better.



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Man! What an exciting bunch of everything lately. My buddy Erik bought me an X-Men 3 Last Stand costume from Cosplay Magic. We ordered it in large, and I'm glad we did, because it was too big. I'm getting help from Justin to tailor it, since he's teaching me as my sensei! Which is totally exciting, and I'm glad. He's like the best of the best. Been in competitions and stuff. So far I think I'm picking up pretty fast, I just need to learn techniques, and how to curve on the machine with the 5/8".

I got word back that my great aunt (mom's side) is still interested in paying for my schooling. Right now I think I'm at the point where I should just accept it as a gift, and go thru with going back. I wanted to go back to school so much and pay for it myself without starting loans, but since moving home and helping dad with finances with my brother, it's been absolutely impossible to do anything for myself. So, as soon as the move happens, I think I'll be looking to go back to COD for the spring quarter to finish schooling. This would include everything I didn't finish (AA) to things I want to take (sewing, photography, computers). I really wanted to pursue in so much and it's been so hard when I've been so distracted with everything emotionally and financially. Quite frankly, I'm very excited. Things are starting to shape up. At least in the aspect of my dominos being set up.

I went to see Richard Cheese on a date on Friday! It was awesome! Richard Cheese was sick, but he still put on a great show. We got VIP passes (which was retardedly over priced just to be "in line first" for meeting the band). I got some signatures, got hit on, had a sweet adventure (posted on facebook), and got to talk crazy and drums with the pianist and drummer. They're so awesome, I so still want them for my wedding. What sucked was that since they're all about showing tits (vegas, baby) they hand out free shit if you flash tits. I swear every fucking female there was such a chicken shit. I would have been all over that like white on rice. They were even recording a DVD I think! Anyway, before we went to the show we went to Harry Carey's. I've never been there! I had Fetuccini. It was good, ate the whole thing. The bread was retardedly delicious, too. I had fun. That's like the 3rd date!

This week is Wizard World Chicago Comicon. I whipped up a quick Mary Jane Watson yesterday, and I think I might wear it. I'm sure nobody will know unless they know her first appearance outfit, or the piece Adam Hughes did, or unless I'm standing with Peter in his Spider-man costume. Then, I'm going to wear White Phoenix of the Crown and probably green Phoenix, too. Again, I was going to wear X3 Jean, but I'd rather take my time and learn how to tailor the right way, instead of rush to wear at a con, when there will be more to come in the future... like Windy City Con! I've got Gregory Titus staying at my house this week, and I need to pick him up from the airport on Wednesday. I got a free pass for Fri-Sun from Marc Whipple, and I think Greg is getting me one for Thursday, too. There's also a bunch of after parties and events happening after each day at the con too with everybody, so I'm excited for that. Costume party, Roast of Chris/his birthday, maybe a club, blah blah blah fun fun fun.

Jayson figured out how to tamper with my camera. It was actually a combination of both the battery AND lack of battery door! It works with one of my batteries, and it works when you tamper with the door switch in the bottom of the camera. So, I will need to not only get new batteries, but just need to get that battery door on the Canon Rebel. I'm glad it was an easy fix, but, I still want new equipment. Including my lights and shit. I have all these ideas, and I don't want to shoot them yet until I have the proper stuff so it looks as great as I see it in my head! I think that might be one of the classes I want to take one at a time... photography. I think I'll benefit from it more right now. Seeing as my skills for sewing isn't as awesome, and I'm already technically working on computers for my job as is. Either way, awesome! Exciting! New!

I'm still stuck on losing weight, but I feel once Lee and I move things will be easier to keep up with. Since I think I am able to get my old job back at Healthtrack (Thanks Laz!) I'll try working out there first, and then maybe work my way to XSport since it's 24/7. So, general consesus? 1 full time job, 1 part time job, 1 class here and there or as I see fit. The fact that my diet sucks now and I barely have time to exercise, that's why I'm stuck at 165lbs. I still don't feel like I'm overweight, I just want to better what I've got. Tone, tighten. The works. I've gotten better though. I still have hip bones, which rules. I just have a bit loose under my chin, my muffin top, and lower ab pouch. I also want to make my biceps smaller. I got some great feedback from my buddies who are crazy into working out, so I've got some notes! I just need to consistancy and the schedule for it. Again, moving out will help out so much. Less stress, more availability. I also got a hold of a girl I went to school with who's one of the ice bunnies for the Blackhawks. She has an AMAZING stomach and she told me her secret! I'm so going to try it. That's truly all I want... sexy abs.

I really like being a redhead, I think it was a cool move on my part. Just enough change to where it wasn't crazy like I used to. I only miss the brown when I look at Victoria's secret, but then I see how much it makes my eyes pop, I call people tiger, and co-workers call me Ariel? I love it. hahaha

I've also been more into grooming. Which feels so good for me. Makes me feel sexier. More feminine. Nails, pedicures, manicures, hair appointments, tanning, body waxing. I think it's awesome. My new bathing suit from Victoria's Secret is soooo cute, too. It fits great, which is what I was afraid of. And when I get my boob job, that suit will still fit based on how the support is on the top. So great!

I've got some shoots coming up, and finally there are photographers who want to work with me who have portfolio that's worth having in mine haha. Although I'm not a super model, that doesn't mean I should work with anybody that asks, any "guy with camera". No, I can do better than that. It's also a challenge, too. Soon I hope I'll have l33t skills to fucking get TH Taylor to shoot me ever in a world haha. SIGH.

I updated my website a bit, but I feel I should put more shit up there.
What are some things you'd like to see up on my website?
What are things you think I should change?

p.s., Remember when I told you that my mom looks like Beverly Crusher?
( Well, click here for photos of my mom and Dr Crusher )

This is why I think I can pull her off, you should see photos of my mom when she was my age. If mom took care of herself, didn't have Multiple Sclerosis, and was healthy? I'm sure what she would have looked like now, would be how I might look when I'm older. But, alas, she hasn't, so I don't think I'll be much likeness.
Speaking of, been talking to mom more than usual. Still a little weird, but progress is progress. I'll take anything if that means a happier life.

And last but not least, here's me self portait as MJ Adam Hughes style (and yes I know, arms are opposite, sue me):

Some of you already know, I'm just tardy on updating it: I'm officially a red head as I stated before, but here's a photo!
I've already had to get it touched up/redone. My hair apparently isn't holding the dye. But I guess red is a hard color to keep vibrant anyway. Totally cool! I think it's worth it. A good small change I did for myself.
I've been enjoying myself a lot recently. Feel really at ease and comfortable. I've still got a lot of change to do, and I think it's been really great for me. The more I've been talking about my choices and my goals, the more it feels really awesome to say out loud. To step back and go, "wow, I'm really doing this."
I've still got some bumps in the road, but I wasn't going to assume this was a cruise control drive. The road ahead is uphill with some potholes, so I need to be the driver by myself.
I've just got the roof down right now enjoying the drive :)

I'm very excited for Wizard World in 12 days!

I've been rekindling old friends, and it feels awesome. Feels so good to see them and talk to them and hang out again.

I've been looking into school, getting my head counts and price tags gathered.

I've been looking for a place to live to move in with my brother. Only thing with this is I was waiting so long for word from my current leasing office what the deal was with our lease since they put our house up for sale (as in, does that mean it voids our lease if we can get bought out at any time). So, I'm hoping financially it'll be alright to move soon. At least we already spoke to our dad about it. Having "the talk" to give him enough warning and notice incase he has to find roommates.

I've been very good at handling my peace whenever I'm in an escalated conversation. Usually this is between my mom and dad. I haven't cried recently, which to me is MUCH improvement. I'm not getting mad, I've just been keeping it cool. Calm. Collected.

With everything going on, all my feelings, and all this want for change, I feel really good about it. I think it was a great decision to have me become a step closer to becoming happy with my life.

Just got chosen 1 of 2 people to represent my company in a CEO corporate video. It'll be shown on behalf of the entire company, venders, and outside developers. Production shooting Aug 17-18. Prepare to be swooned Hollywood.

Well. It's been a very interesting everything as of late. Sorry for the lack of update. Been finding myself to be less and less online. At least posting, stalking and continuous refreshing nonsense. Rich and I aren't together anymore, and I initiated it. Haven't been talking to him often, for the sack of my focus. Lee and I have officially had the "talk" with dad that him and I will be moving out come end of the lease (September). Looks like we'll be moving to the AMLI establishment in Wheaton. It's not set yet because I need to schedule a meeting with them for paperwork in hopes that they haven't gotten rid of the apartment we wanted when I last spoke to the office. Either way, moving is inevitable. Which I'm fairly excited about. My heart has been all over the place, been nerve wrecking. Nothing I can't overcome though. I think everything will start to clear up as soon as I move. Less chaos so my thought process can be a little more... organized and less stressful.

Justin Williams is helping me learn to sew. He's really good and I'm happy he's willing to teach me. My want list for cosplay just keeps getting bigger and bigger and it just keeps getting more and more frustrating that I don't know how to properly sew for the life of me. Crafts? I can do. Sew? Wtf fml. I'm in the works of completing Birdgirl. Look like I just have 3 pieces left and I'm done. If I can as well collaborating with Justin, I'll try to crank out another costume of Jim Lee's Jean Grey. If I don't get around to it, that's fine. I got a free pass for the entire con (excluding Thursday, I don't care for Thursday) and I'm in the works of taking that entire week off from work. Like a mini vacation. Not sure if I'll stay in the city or just at home, but I know I've got some super stars to hang out with which will be very fun. Even already have opportunities to stay with some people for D*Con next year in Atlanta. Oh, lots of fun stuff happening after each night of the con, so I hope I'll make my way to hang with everybody! Somebody just keep me posted and call me!

I've recently joined the Wizard Universe forums (aka WUMB), and although I already have two haterades trying to school me, I still think it's a fun group to be a part of. Great for networking, exciting to have a chance to meet new people, let alone people with the same interests as me! I do admit that I'd probably need to back off for a bit considering I'm apparently a bit too conceited in the threads. Oh well. Live and let learn.

I'm trying to sell some of my things and I'm not having much luck. I guess I'm asking for too much money for my TV. It's what I get for trying to sell something that's NOT a flatscreen. Since PS3 is out, too, nobody wants my wireless controller. I haven't tried eBay because I don't want to mail it to anyone. I'm a cash only pick up only kind of person, so I've only done status updates and Craigslist. No luck. If I haven't had a chance to sell anything, I'm putting it all up on freesources. I've got some downsizing to do, and I think the cleanse will help with my thoughts, too. If anybody is interested in helping me out, please let me know. I've got lots of things to sell.

I met with my mom for the first time in 3 years a couple weeks ago. We went to lunch. Had a 5 hour talk. It was interesting. I didn't cry, which was awesome for me. She did though. It went better than I expected, and we did make some progress I think. Which I'll take any progress than none. It's still a little weird, I've still got some grudge about the whole thing, but it's expected since most of my life I've been angry or sad. Doesn't help though that everybody including her are practically dying from health issues. I seem a little pressured to "make ammends".

I want to go back to school.
I want to move.
I want to clean myself.
I want lots and lots of change.

Having an interesting, frustrating, heart-breaking, difficult time right now. Chaotic and challenging. It's for the better. I'm learning to grow. I want some change. I want to some resolution. This will be my journey. Moving soon.

UPDATES!:
New shit up in my store!
www.1womanshow.com

Come see me in the Homewood, IL The Zone Comics parade tomorrow for the 4th of July!
X-Men and Bumblebee Autobot!
www.thezonecomics.com

I dyed my hair red! Already picked up nicknames "Jean", "Red" and "MJ".
Awesome! Pictures on website, myspace, and facebook!

Twitter and Facebook are officially in sync! Prepare to know everytime I take a shit, Facebook!

Lost 5lbs!

I'm not sick anymore! That was the worst 37 days ever!

I didn't upgrade my iPhone to 3.0 yet. Too lazy to re-jailbreak. However, www.iclarified.com is pretty awesome. I'll go through there if I want some information and updates on the awesome that is called Apple.

New possible opportunity arose for me to work at Apple. Opting for part-time for exposure. Hope it goes well.

Michael Jackson's death is kind of weird. I'm sick of hearing how horrible of a person he was. It's never about the music anymore. I like Michael and Janet Jackson.

Collectible Nation Comicon! 7/12/09 9am in Oaklawn, IL!
See you there in costume!

VOP SHOW Model Auction! 7/10/09 9pm
VOP SHOW Model Auction Date! 7/31/09 9pm
VOP SHOW! 8/28/09 9pm
See you there!

New goal for cosplay:
Create as many Jean Grey collaborations as possible.

I'm selling my PS2 Wireless controller. $30 OBO.

I'm selling my TV.
RCA 32" XBOX Ready VPORT
$200:



Let me know. I can drive it to you.

"Here's how to lose inches off your waist fast. In fact, you can lose 3 inches off your waist in about 1 month. Interested in finding out how? I'm sure you are. Don't worry, it has nothing to do with dieting or doing a lot of stupid exercises. It's just 1 simple thing you need to do everyday.

The best exercise you can do to lose inches off your waist is called the vacuum pose.

This is what it is... you suck in your belly button as much as possible. Now, be careful not to be make the mistake of sucking in your upper belly area. You want to suck in the lower belly around your belly button.

Now suck that in as much as possible and hold that position for between 15-60 seconds. The longer the better. Rest then repeat this. Do this for a total of 5 minutes a day.

My clients who do this 5 minutes a day average 1.75 inches lost from their waists. Now, if you are more dedicated, do the vacuum pose for 15-20 minutes each day and you will lose nearly 3 inches from your waist.

Here's how you can do it for 20 minutes without feeling like you did it for 20 minutes.

You do them during tv commercials. The average 1 hour tv show has about 22 minutes of tv commercials. Now, simply do this exercise for 2 minutes during each commercial that comes on during that tv show. Wasted time all of a sudden becomes productive time."

How to Lose Inches in your Waist FAST




/pwned

"In case of fire, break the glass"

Holy shit everyone, why hasn't summer began yet? It's fucking June already!
Would you want to go with me to SIX FLAGS this summer?
AHHH!

My work is doing a promotional thing with Six Flags.
I get to order an unlimited amount of tickets for just $27.00 each.

You need to go with me on either of these dates:
- June 16th
- June 19th
- June 23rd-25th
- July 18th-29th
- Augst 1st-2nd

These are the only dates where they are $27.00
Let me know! I really want to go.
I don't care of it's a Saturday or a Sunday.